"You will be dead in just a few years if you don't get your stress levels under control," said the doctor as she looked directly into eyes.  "Stress" was her diagnosis!   I couldn't imagine she was right. Back then I had been compelled to visit many doctors.  Each conducted their own series of tests.  Some did a multitude of blood work while others requested sonograms and other examinations, including a colonoscopy, even though I was only in my 30's.   It seemed like I was in a constant cycle of seeing doctor after doctor and not one of them could figure out what was happening to my body. It seemed to happen slowly and then it seemed to hit me all at once.  My hair began to fall out in the shower in large amounts.  My hairdresser noticed that I had developed a bald spot and was the one who told me!  I hadn't even seen it!  I knew why I missed it.  I was a full time working mom with two very young children. I was working 60+ hours a week and even worked additional hours on the weekends when projects were due.  Travel for my job was required too so I was away from my young children and my home which was very upsetting and emotionally disturbing for all of us.  So even after he told me about the bald spot, I ignored the sign my body was sending me.  I just didn't have time, I told myself.

I was always going, going, going.  There was no time for myself.  Ever.  Then the rectal bleeding began, almost daily, and I knew something was terribly wrong. But I didn't know what it was or how this had happened to me. I was 'superwoman' or so I believed.  I could do it all.  So I did.  

As a result, my body, mind and spirit paid a very heavy price.  Late at night, after I had stopped working, bathed and put the children to bed, finished the laundry, cleaned up the house, paid the bills, etc. I would collapse into bed. Exhausted.  Expecting to sleep like a baby, I was stunned when I didn't.  In fact, I barely slept.  During this time in my life, I slept about four to five hours a night.  My mind would not shut off.  It raced with thoughts and all the things I had to still do.  The never ending list of responsibilities played over and over in my exhausted mind. It was never quiet.  Like a child having a temper tantrum, it went on and on.  Rest never came easily.  

So when my doctor said, "You will be dead in just a few years if you don't get your stress levels under control," I was shocked.  I didn't want to believe her because that meant I had done this to myself.  How was that possible. How could stress do this to someone?  Isn't this just how life is? Busy, busy, busy! Yet inside of me, something was triggered. Facing a diagnosis like that forced an internal transformational that I would not truly recognize for many years.  

So I quietly left her office and walked to my car and broke down into a million pieces. I began crying from a place deep in my belly, like I had never cried before.  Terrifying thoughts raced through my mind.  My children would be raised without their mommy.  I would never see them grow up and experience all the joy I knew we were meant to experience.  This was so unfair.  How did this happen?  How did I get here?  And most importantly, would I ever get out of this deep, dark place with a death sentence only a few years away?

And in that moment, without my conscious knowing, my journey began and lead me upon a path of holistic recovery.  Mainstream medicine could not offer solutions to my crisis so I was forced to find a new path.  A path I had not journeyed upon before and one I will forever continue on.  It offered me radical ideas, approaches, and solutions I had never been exposed to before.  Alternative treatments, ideas and ways of living I knew nothing about. 

I made a commitment to myself that if I had created this death sentence for my life, then I would have the power somewhere within to un-create it.  In that moment of making the choice to understand and act upon the new holistic ideas that were being presented to me,  a portal to a new dimension of healing was opened for me and I leaped.

Now, I coach, offer energy healing, teach and share all I have learned.  Allowing others to finding solutions and healing within their lives.  

I am honored you have found me here and may our journey be one of light and love.