Wealth is the ability to fully experience life-Thoreau

• "You will be dead in just a few years if you don't get your stress levels under control,"  said the doctor, as she looked directly into my eyes with deep concern. 
•  "Stress" was her diagnosis!   

I couldn't imagine that her diagnosis was accurate. 

Back then, in my 30's, I had been compelled to visit many doctors.  Each one conducted their own series of evaluations and ordered many tests to be done.  Some did a multitude of blood work samples, while others requested sonograms and other internal examinations. I even had to have a colonoscopy in my 30's!  I was in a constant cycle of seeing doctor after doctor because not one of them could figure out what was happening to my body. 

It seemed to happen slowly and then it seemed to hit me all at once.  I was falling apart, piece by piece.  My hair began to fall out in the shower in large amounts.  I ignored it.  One day my hair stylist noticed that I had developed a bald spot and told me!  I hadn't even seen it even thought it was in a very noticeable spot.  I knew why I missed it, along with all the other signs. 

I was a full-time working mom with two very young children. I was working 60+ hours a week and then additional hours on the weekends. All of this left very little time for me.  Travel for my job was required, so I was away from my young children and my home.  This was quite upsetting and emotionally disturbing for all of us.  So even after my hair stylist told me about the bald spot he spotted, I ignored the sign my body was sending me.  I just didn't have time, I told myself.  

I was always going, going, going.  There was no time for myself and no time to care for my body.  It was until one day when the rectal bleeding began that I knew something was terribly wrong.  It continued daily but I was so scared and I didn't know what was wrong.  I didn't know what the cause was for anything that was happening to me or even how this had happened to me. 

I was 'superwoman' or so I believed.  I could do it all.  So I did.  I was the primary "bread" winner in my family and the MONEY STRESS was intense at times. I just couldn't STOP!  What would happen to the family if I stopped?  It wasn't possible.  I had to keep pushing through and meeting the every day demands of my life.

As a result, my body, mind and spirit paid a very heavy price.  Late at night, after I had finished working, bathed the children and put them to bed, did the laundry, cleaned up the house,  and paid the bills, took care of the puppy,  I would collapse into bed. I was so exhausted.  I always expected to sleep like a baby and I was stunned when I didn't.  In fact, I barely slept.  During this time in my life, I slept about four to five hours a night.  My mind would not shut off.  It raced with thoughts and all the things I had to still do.  The never ending list of responsibilities played over and over in my exhausted mind. My mind was like a broken recording.  It did not know how to be quiet.  My mind felt like a child having a temper tantrum, it went on and on.  Rest never came easily.  So when my doctor said, "You will be dead in just a few years if you don't get your stress levels under control," I was shocked and scared.  I was a mom now, I was responsible for others now and they depended on me. 

I didn't want to believe my doctor because that would mean that I had done this to myself.  How was that possible? How could stress do this to someone?  Isn't this just how life is? Busy, busy, busy! Yet inside of me, something was triggered. Facing a diagnosis like that forced an internal transformational that I would not truly recognize for many years.  

So, I quietly left her office and walked to my car and broke down into a million pieces. I began crying from a place deep in my belly, like I had never cried before.  Terrifying thoughts raced through my mind.  My children would be raised without their mommy.  I would never see them grow up and experience all the joy I knew we were meant to experience together as a family.  This was so unfair.  How did this happen?  How did I get here?  And most importantly, would I ever get out of this deep, dark place with a death sentence only a few years away?  And in that moment, without my conscious knowing, my journey began and lead me upon a path of holistic recovery and understanding.  Mainstream medicine could not offer solutions to my crisis so I was forced to find a new path.  A path I had not journeyed upon before and one I will forever continue on.  It offered me radical ideas, approaches, and solutions I had never been exposed to before.  Alternative treatments, ideas and ways of living I knew nothing about. 

THE TURNING POINT: I made a commitment to myself in that moment, sitting in the car, crying so deeply, that if I had created this death sentence for my life, then I would have the power somewhere within to "uncreate" it.  To change my path and regain my life back.  In that moment of making the choice to understand and act upon the new ideas that were being presented to me,  a portal to a new dimension of healing was opened for me and I leaped.

I am grateful to say that I am now in my 50's, yes 20 years later, and because of that challenge my entire life was redirected onto a much healthier and better path.  I learned more about my relationship with myself, my relationship with others and my relationship with money.  Through that journey, I understood that I really didn't have a healthy relationship with money.  Learning and understanding about my own Sacred Money Archetypes  was one step which helped me to understand how money effected my life, how it impacted my every day decisions, and it has helped me to change to have a healthy relationship with myself, money and wealth.

Money Stress is one of the most common stressors because we need money to survive.  Now, through my coaching I teach and share all I have learned along my path so that you may create a better life for yourself, free from the worries and stresses of Money.